Apologies for the long time between posts, life has been an interesting rollercoaster, but I am glad I could take time out to make a post. God is good, Amen!
Right now, two months and 16 days into 2017, I feel like I am on a journey, a similar journey to the 40 days and 40 nights the Israelites went through. This journey in more ways than one is trying, but has its rewarding moments. I feel like I fail more than I pass the assignments given to me. When I fail an assignment I beat myself up about it rather than look at it as a learning opportunity.
In a journey, God reveals ourselves to us, not just the good parts that we brag about, but the parts that we want to hide, cover, deny, or ignore. In Exodus 12-16 we see that the Israelites fresh out of Egypt have not let go of Egypt. You can take the people out of Egypt, but you can’t take the Egypt out of the people. They continue to carry their slave mentality with them on the journey to the Promise Land. What was supposed to be an 11-day journey became 40 years. In those 40 years, many generations perished never seeing the Promised Land. Had the trip taken 11 days those very same people would have brought their slave mentality to a free land and who knows what would have happened.
As hard as it is to admit in my personal life, I understand why God did what he did for them and me. The journey I am on is to prepare me for the Promised Land and while I want it yesterday, I am not ready.
I have not been freed from my baggage yet and if I were to bring them into the Promised Land God has created for me, I would be not only be physically there but mentally in bondage, I would not realize the blessing or importance of it.
So for those also on a journey, understand it is full of ups and downs; some days you are right on the money and other days you have completely missed the mark, but its okay. It’s okay because those moments continue to reveal areas we need to work on, bring to light, acknowledge and bring to God’s feet.
I type this as a reminder to myself, in this moment, of feeling like I completely missed my mark. Tomorrow will come, will be better and another day to get it right. Have a blessed week.