The Journey

Apologies for the long time between posts, life has been an interesting rollercoaster, but I am glad I could take time out to make a post. God is good, Amen!

Right now, two months and 16 days into 2017, I feel like I am on a journey, a similar journey to the 40 days and 40 nights the Israelites went through. This journey in more ways than one is trying, but has its rewarding moments. I feel like I fail more than I pass the assignments given to me. When I fail an assignment I beat myself up about it rather than look at it as a learning opportunity.

In a journey, God reveals ourselves to us, not just the good parts that we brag about, but the parts that we want to hide, cover, deny, or ignore. In Exodus 12-16 we see that the Israelites fresh out of Egypt have not let go of Egypt. You can take the people out of Egypt, but you can’t take the Egypt out of the people. They continue to carry their slave mentality with them on the journey to the Promise Land. What was supposed to be an 11-day journey became 40 years. In those 40 years, many generations perished never seeing the Promised Land. Had the trip taken 11 days those very same people would have brought their slave mentality  to a free land and who knows what would have happened.

As hard as it is to admit in my personal life, I understand why God did what he did for them and me. The journey I am on is to prepare me for the Promised Land and while I want it yesterday, I am not ready.

I have not been freed from my baggage yet and if I were to bring them into the Promised Land God has created for me, I would be not only be physically there but mentally in bondage, I would not realize the blessing or importance of it.

So for those also on a journey, understand it is full of ups and downs; some days you are right on the money and other days you have completely missed the mark, but its okay. It’s okay because those moments continue to reveal areas we need to work on, bring to light, acknowledge and bring to God’s feet.

I type this as a reminder to myself, in this moment, of feeling like I completely missed my mark. Tomorrow will come, will be better and another day to get it right. Have a blessed week.



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Self Mirror

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Mirrors are powerful because they can show you a lot about yourself. Yet, no mirror is more powerful than God. Recently God has been showing me flaws that I have, flaws that I am certain he wants me to work on. How do I know this? Because God is the biggest supporter of the No Child Left Behind Program. Unlike George Bush’s version that allows you to be advanced to the next stage of life ill prepared; God will have you repeat that lesson over and over until you get it. The hardest thing about these flaws is accepting them and looking at them as flaws. However, I know they are and I know that wherever God wants to take me, he needs to stretch me before I get there. In the Bible, there are many mentions of the process of making gold usable. Gold goes through the fire and is refined until all the useless parts are removed and what is left is useful.

This process is just like our journey in life. We have parts of us that needs to be stretched and removed before we can become useful to God, become the person he is calling us to be. While its hard to not look at this process like “ugh,” I know it is necessary and I need God to help refine me. The Book I am reading called “The Purpose Drive Life” By Rick Warren talked about the benefits of interacting with imperfect Christians and people and I agree with him; through interactions with people you learn so much about yourself. I will share some of what I have learned about myself: I am so not as patient as I thought I was, I can be very self-centered, its my way or the highway, I feed off the energy people bring to me, you can imagine how that can turn into a negative; I do not like disrespect at all, I do not like to be dismissed, cannot take criticism well, and I have a temper like no other.

There are plenty more, but I will stick with these. These flaws show me where I am most immature or weak at. Where I lack emotional maturity and self control of my flesh. I was down these last few days since I realized these parts of myself. However listening to the three sermons I will post below has opened my mind. God reveals our weak areas in order to help us grow. If we feel we are perfect angels or don’t address those parts of ourselves, we cannot be the Christians he has called us to be. The Bible is full of imperfect people with flaws: Saul, first King of Israel, had low self-esteem, Moses had anger problems, Peter had a cursing problem, Paul used to kill Christians, and so on. However, some of them did not just accept their flaws they knew they needed God’s help and direction.

So my advice? God will very much reveal your flaws to you, but you must be willing to change. Will change happen over night? NOPE! However, change will happen. Will it be easy? I am still in my feelings, so there’s your answer lol. Are you alone? No! God is available 24/7 and will hear you out. Even when you mess up, he is still there and will check up on you.

I want to encourage myself, as well as you guys, while I may not know where this will lead me and I am sure I am going to have more discouraging moments, I am ready for God to refine me. As I said before God uses plenty of people with flaws and they are willing to be used, but we all need to change in ways to become the movers and shakers God’s Kingdom needs. (Bonus)


Stay Connected Sermon

I like this sermon because Pastor Battle talks about a wide range of things. As Christians we are still learning how to Christians, followers of Christ. Part of our learning is how to deal with the parts of us that are not Christlike- fornication, adultery, pornography, gossip, alcohol, gluttony, and the like. At least my response was to ignore those parts of me and treat them like the didn’t exist, but it didn’t make them disappear. The same is true for many others Christians, we cannot ignore the parts of us that does not fit into our Christ lifestyle or reputation and this is what the message tackles. How do we handle the sinful areas of ourselves because they are part of us? I hope this message touches you the same way it did me. Have a blessed week and enjoy.

Stay Connected

God is Good

I know its been awhile since I’ve provided a personal anecdote, but God truly is good. It’s a nice cliche some of us say, but God is good all the time and all the time God is good. I provided the run down from a previous job of mine. Dealing with people that want you to fail and that do not want you to succeed, hurts. It creates an environment that is hostile and cause anxiety. I remember this time because it was a nice introduction into the work place and how the world can be. While there were bad moments there, I cannot deny that I learned a lot from the experience. My learned lessons bring me to now.

I recently got a review and the review shocked me, it shocked me because more then a year ago I received a negative review. I was told I was not on target in all these areas, made to look incompetent, at one company, only to be rated as successful in the same areas, but at a different company. I hope I am explaining this correctly. God showed me how in control he is in every situation. He brought me through a rough time only to lay me by still waters. He knew that I wouldn’t be in a bad situation for long even if it seemed never ending at the time. I thank God so much because subconsciously I internalized the negative review I received, I let it lay on me like a second blanket and it had a hand in the way I did a lot of things. However, God knew what he had for me and guided me through moments when I was lost, confused, angry, doubtful, and just full of emotions. I just want to say that I knew better was in store for me, but I could never have thought just what better was. So to all of you it doesn’t matter where you are, God always has better for you. You may not know what the better is, but know that he has all things in his hands. God is good is more then a cliche it is a testament to honestly how Great and exceptional of a Father and Friend he is to us.